My most loved husband asked me this morning ” Babe, what kind of a life do you want to live? ” A very simple question. Immediately a lot of -ist began to pop up in my head. Minimalist, simplisti, feministi, nature friendly.. the list goes on.. The truth however and my answer was .. I want to live a simple life, close to God. A life where i am of service, where i can bring what is uniquely mine to the table and help everyone with it , i want to give more than i take. Well easily said than done.. ( total no of I´s in this overwhelms me)
I have recently been reading a book from Tomas Sjödin titled in Swedish ” Den som hittar sin plats tar ingen annans” .. translated into “That which finds its place takes nobody else´s place”. A book which has made quite an impact on my understanding. The book talks about the fact that everyone has a gift but it is upto us to bring into life the unique gift we have and use it to help others. When we do that then we find our place.. Inspiring and hopeful.
The recent months have been a lot of soul searching for me.. What is my purpose in life? Do i even have any gifts? what kind of values do i have? .. and so on and so on.. As a child i thought that adults have this kind of shit figured out. Sorry little me.. not this adult. I have talked countless hours to my wise and amazing husband about this and i have come up with at least a dozen concrete plans that seem so right but so far away.. What i know is that for the longest time i have been trying to make sense of life but now i see there is no sense to be made, only life to be lived. there is just an emphemeral moment to breathe, to love, to be kind, to feel. Life is in all the simple, little things that we so often overlook. Life is about embracing the journey not fretting about the destination.
I have no fucking clue what my destination is.. All is now is Jesus is going to guide me to it if i let Him. Just now i want to move my focus from I .. Be a little less selfish, more kind, more selfless, love without conditions and understand .. Like Dalai Lama says ” The planet doesnt need more sucessful people. The planet desperately needs more peacemakers, healers, restorers,storytellers and lovers of all kinds”..
So if you ever need an ear to listen to you and tell your story , please dont hesitate to contact me. I will continue writing my story here 🙂 .. Hugs and Peace