Over the past few days, I have been in the process of selling household things , things that have caused me sleepless nights and stress. Things that I thought would make my life better, would make me happier. I often thought only if i had the money to buy that, I would be happier. And more often than not, Lord blessed me with just “that” thing. Now that my house is half empty, I realize that I don’t need so much at all to live comfortably or to love passionately. By the grace of the Lord, I have been blessed with love, my soulmate ( can never thank God enough for him), kids, career and a passion for living and adventures. . And that if I cannot be happy now then I can never be happy. In a half empty house I realize I am done with things. No thing can bring me happiness or bring me stress.
The definition of success that I have grown up with has always been the Swedish dream of 3 Vs ( Villa, Volvo, Vovve) .. meaning that one is successful when one owns a big house, a big car and a dog. The Indian version includes having a bank balance as large as a phone number. And God has blessed me with a lot of these material success , house, car and a full family.. I am living the life that i have dreamt about with the most fantastic person i could dream of. I have a job that i like, colleagues who really appreciate me. I have the most curious and the most challenging kids. I have a bunch of good and bad experiences. And I am so grateful for life.
As the Lord says
Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”
I am content and I am manifesting the next phase by God’s grace and abundance. A phase where i can inner engineer myself. Create my definition of success. Let loose of that adventurous spirit. Have the ability to still my mind so I can listen to my soul. Listen to God. Be able to take care of myself not by sitting in a bubble bath or chocolate cake, but by having the courage to create a life that I don’t need to escape. Letting go of all things that bring me down ( people, self limiting believes and over consumption patterns), make more time to write, to help and just listen. Amen !