Seneca has said “It is not the man who has too little, but the man who craves more, that is poor.” Is life all about the chase? The projects we work on, the places we goto, the adventures we do. There are many must dos, many want to do and many should do..A day has been good when we have been able to prioritize some want to do things..
When the must dos don’t get done then life feels unfunctional and that is often when I lift my vision to see the “big picture “.. which is often a list of want to and should do items.. Then I slip into a depression where I see i haven’t come even an inch forward.. I cry, feel sorry for myself, torture my loved ones, eat some sugar or drink some alcohol and go back to the must dos.. . Sometimes though I do get to the want to dos, and proudly do it.. call it self improvement..
However after my latest breakdown 🙂 i have been wondering what if we don’t identify ourselves completely with self improvement or efficiency !
For example, I love reading. I really enjoy the company of a book. Today while browsing I came across an ad for an app that showed an young woman who claimed she had no time to read but through this app she could read the crux of famous books during her commute. She had “read” 3 books a day,.. first I loved the idea.. I have always measured myself with numbers.. my new year resolutions often include reading 52 books a year.. at the same time it felt so counterproductive.. Is the joy in the chase to get the numbers or is it in the act of reading? After all I read as a hobby. Do I really need to make it efficient instead of fun?
What if we didn’t chase or measure the big picture always and just chose life with entirety. Have the mindset to add value where we can and not feel bad about progress. Keep doing our part the best we can without stress. Do our part and trust the Lord.
One of my favorite verse in the Bible is
Give us this day our daily bread
I know that my Lord will take care of my physical, emotional and spiritual needs. He knows my deepest desires and He is not afraid to provide for me. I pray that He gives me the strength to not worry.. All I need to do is to choose Him. Cut to the chase..